So, no word from H until this afternoon when he called my out-of-state friend and asked her if he could fly me down to visit again for as long as I need to be away...he then bought a one-way airline ticket for tomorrow and called me to tell me to drop off the kids in the morning. I had to decline, as our son's third birthday is this weekend and I need to be in town to help with the Jr. Miss program next week.
He didn't know what to do from there. So he asked if I want to work things out, to which I replied, "yes!" He asked what I need, and I reminded him of the things I asked for in the note: work on finding a new job and go to counseling. We went back and forth for awhile and came to a compromise: he agreed to make changes to the things about his current job that are bothering me and go to counseling as long as it is future/solution oriented and not digging up the past. PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE TO ME!
We agreed to take this slow, give him time to show me his changes...he said he doesn't expect me to trust him any time in the near future, but he is sorry for hurting me and is willing to work on us.
So, the rollercoaster starts the pull up the next hill, with me FINALLY able to stand for what I need in our M. And knowing that I have the power and strength to do so. I know it's not going to be easy from here on out, but I am hopeful that I'm no longer pulling the freight train by myself.
