Penny, we are very alike, big kids and all.

I don't have a thread. I have been a reader. My 'story' is just the same as everyone's. Why type?

I have just kept the faith as well as I could. I have survived, some horrible personal insults and losses. I shrugged them off because I did not know what to do otherwise. I am stalled out now. I am feeling like a geriatric 'ho.. My husband failed a business. Our house and land went with it. He disintegrated and started some affairs.

I think I could have "rescued" the situation sooner. He was messed up and never went too far away. He has always kept me near.

Lately, I am taking inventory. He is making a business jump but staging it in a way that keeps me here in my "pumpkin".

When I lose my temper, he reacts. I am thinking that I have been too timid. I am sure that I need to have a '[censored] or get off the pot' conversation...

I love him and I am bored when he is away... he has been away too long.

I do read into what you write. I think your husband is still very attached to you and your family. I faced down each and everyone of my husband's OW. They backed off, but I think he enjoyed the drama-rama.

We will comfort each other.

Friend Flicka... {I read the books...}