Can you help the Brue my friends? PLEASE READ.

[brueniap]

Santhony -

You pulled out the one phrase that hit me the most today. I also thot when H asked about the roommate/husband thing - did he really mean it about being a husband? This is what this will be about tonite - I assure you.

You see - I don't mind if he wants to continue pursuing all that he's been doing. I don't even care if he goes out and sings each nite of the week and tries to find himself in this world.

I do care if he caps on me because I will not be going with him to ALL of the things he deems necessary in his life to find his way. I do have a problem if he thinks that my working and trying to earn a living and get out of debt is "interfering" with me doting on him.

I do have a problem if he stays up all nite many nites of the week working on music.......and then holds it against me if I can't sleep so I get up to work on a project (something I always did before - which he took as a personal slight against him). I don't sleep well.......and I sleep even less when I sleep with him.

It may be less about expectations and more about boundaries - there is a difference

I think this is what I need to think about - perhaps it is a boundaries thing.

this is so hard...........

i've loved having peace and quiet and not fretting over this that and the other. It was so nice not having those stresses in my life anymore. Thank you for your thots Santhony - you have no idea how appreciated they are.

JEANETTE -
I think I'll know my gut later on. I know that God has not let me down even one time since this whole thing happened - not once. I'm sure He will be by my side tonite as well. Thank you for you prayers.

I'm willing to listen to any guidance. I did tell him today that I am not influenced by what others in town or from church would think......because I guarantee that there are many who would think me crazy for letting him come back home after "all I've been thru". I don't really care about that - that's not even an issue with me.


brue