Another day of second guessing myself

[Heywyre]

of course it makes sense and if you are waiting for the honeymoon to come back - forget it, it won't, period!!

I was the same way. We were totally in love with each other (or so I thought) people couldn't believe how we never said a bad word about each other and used to bug us saying "oh come on, there must be something you don't like about each other"

Nope, we both had our flaws but were willing to accept each other the way we were. We were the last couple on earth anyone would have suspected something like this to happen to - especially twice! And, as far as "everyone" is concerned we are still the same couple because no one, and I mean no one, other than the psychologist, knows about this sitch. We are still the "ideal couple" to my daughter (if she only knew, it would blow her world apart)

Being "crazy in love" isn't exactly the best place to be. When I look back at where we were (kinda the same "crazy in love" phase) it wasn't reality. I think we swept a lot of things under the rug because we didn't want to deal with them. I could go on for pages here about all the issues that have come to the surface since all this crap happened but its all water under the bridge.

Am I glad it happened? NO !!
Am I glad we had to go through it? NO!!
Would I like to go through it a third time? HELL NO!!

But, would I go back to where we were (i.e. crazy in love) - NO!!

Why? Because that isn't reality and I know, one day, we will be in a much better place, a more peaceful, loving, mature kind of place that I wouldn't trade for the world and I can hardly wait until we get there