Of course you're right. I've told myself those same things for the past two years. This month unfortunately is a trigger. This is the month that I found out and I'm unable to keep my dreams in check. I dream about this all of the time. Name calling, well that's totally immature and totally shows that I've not forgiven. Well, I post here my concerns so that I don't bring this up to him. I don't want US to hurt anymore. I'll do the hurting all by myself. Again, time does heal the pains and for the most part I'm okay. This month is not good, at least for me any way.
As far as making new memories, here's the kicker. We are, and I don't enjoy being with him as much as I use to. I'm not sure why, but it's like the veil has been lifted and I'm not so "goo goo" in love any more. As a reminder, we are both older, I'm 48, he is 51, second marriage. He began his A 1 year after we were married so we were newlyweds. We dated 3 1/2 years before we got married and they were full of adventure, loving and the best times of my life. Now, unfortunately, I see him differntly. Totally, a lack of respect. Yes, I love him, but no I'm not crazy in love with him like before. Does this make sense?
