Hello, to old friends, and new. I guess it's time to post on my own thread again. I have been lurking, but not posting.
There has been a new, yet expected turn of events in my situation. My H filed for divorce last week, and I signed acceptance of the papers on Monday. In 90 days, my marriage will be over.
It was up and down for a few weeks. He didn't talk much about the divorce for about a month, then the day before my birthday he went in, and got things started with the paperwork, but didn't file. St. Patrick's Day he tracked me down, and we ended up spending the night together. Bad idea I am sure, but I was still holding out hope.
Two weeks ago he started to get mean again. He seems to be back in the early stages of his MLC, where everything is my fault. Last week when he filed, he told me that he wants this to be civil. Civil, only because he doesn't want the divorce to cost him more than he thinks it should.
He does have moments where he breaks down, and asks me to forgive him if the divorce turns out to be a mistake. He can't completely say that the divorce is the right thing to do, but he is trying to, "find himself," and he thinks it will bring him the peace he needs.
I have cut off contact with him for the most part. He keeps telling me it doesn't have to be like this, but I don't know how it can be any other way. I gave him control through most of last year, letting him come and go, and see the OW when he wanted to. Now it is time to take back some control over my life.
I received a lot of strength and support from this board last year, and I am hoping to get some of that again. There are so many wonderful people here.
