Althea, take it to heart. Your kids are going to thrive, no matter what, with you in their lives.
Was2 has some really good advice when he's serious, lol! See if you can get babysitting money incl in your spousal support, so you can get out once a week. If your mum or a friends comes over, so much the better ~ money in your pocket.
If you want to renew your RT license, you should be able to get the necessary money from H, unless he wants to be supporting you for the rest of your life. There is no reason that you should have to wait till he gets back. So it takes time and money~you will find a way to get both through friends and H. I think it would really be good for you to feel like you can stand on your own two feet financially, and not be dependent on him. It would give you some independence back, and help with self-confidence and self-respect. You've been doing so well with your knitting, and that seems to have given you a renewed sense of self. I think that working on your RT would have the same effect.
I'm thinking of you and sending you hugs today,
Nic
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