I good nights sleep does wonders, as do paint fumes!! (long story)
I so understand that feeling of being overwhelmed.
Last August I had a meltdown as my two oldest ones were returning to school and I was going to be alone with all of the little ones.
(Six of them ages 4-11). I was so afraid of having to deal with all of the responsibility and the stress and the mess and the fact that I would basically be house bound.
This was not the life I had signed up for, I didn't have this many kids just to be left to raise them alone.
My Husband's attitude at the time sucked, he told me that I really had nothing to complain about and just needed to be more organized.
You and me and the other LBS's are the strong ones. We are the survivors. We will succeed because we didn't jump ship when things got hard, even though the thought of it was tempting at times!!
Our WAS's couldn't cope, they wanted something that we couldn't give them, because their parents couldn't give it to them. They were already damaged good before they met us.
You continuously amaze me with your talents and your beautifully worded posts. There is so much you have to offer and for now you need to relish in the fact that you are the rock for your children's lives. They know you love them. They know you are never going anywhere.
They may love their Father, but they do not trust him. He has chosen to give up the very best thing that ever happened to him and he really will pay for it in the long run.
My oldest Son is almost 21. He has now reached an age where he calls me to see how I am doing and he thanks me for always being there for him and his siblings.
He shares things with me about his day, and calls me for advice. Although my Husband and I have reconcilled, he and the other children remain very guarded around him.
I do not want to punish my Husband for the bad choices he made but the natural consequences are the things he is dealing with now.
What you sow, so shall you reap.
I am seeing the fruits of my labors......and so is he.
Hang in there!!!
(((((((((Faith)))))))))))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.
