I know you're scared...have a good cry...let it out...
YOU are making the BEST and smartest decision by moving your office home...
However, we are here to prevent you from falling. We are here to help you think straight...to get you back, to where you need to be.
BTW - you ask all those questions continually because in your mind - you don't believe him, you want to, but you don't trust him - he's not given you any true signs of working towards the marriage. You know this, so you want any kind of reaction...
Your own mind is trying to self-preserve you...it's trying to lessen the pain...but you punish yourself by hurting you...only. It doesn't hurt him...but, it destroys you...you are angry at yourself - when the anger should be focused on him.
