Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

I think you guys here will be the only ones that understand how I am feeling now.

I'm beginning to feel a lot of resentment towards H. As he is leaving in 2 wks for a year deployment, I do not want to talk at all about the R b/c things are going so well for us. He's acting "as if" nothing ever happened; as if he never dropped the D bomb and said & did everything else he has over the past 3+ mnths.

However, here I am wondering EXACTLY what is going on in his head. Also thinking about HIS downfalls in the M (specifically A's) which have never been addressed -- as far as H was concerned, everything was my fault.

Now, everything is great & wonderful for H and I'm left to deal w/ my inner emotions, etc. about all that has happened.

I don't plan to talk to him about any of this, as I don't want to "start anything" right before he leaves. I know I really need to just work through all of this myself and will have plenty of time to do that when he leaves.