I do my best to find ways to decompress. Everyday I work out alone in our bedroom. Ballet is my choice. I usually spend an hour or so alone. It feels good to sweat after a long day at work.
I do try to GAL outside of the home and away from H. But, I find it difficult due to knowing so little people here. I'm usually shy when it comes to meeting new people, and don't readily put myself out there. I'm pretty selective on people who I let into my life. (Maybe that's why I only have a few good friends.) Of course like I tell my SS11, that it's good to have lots of acquaintences, but it's better to have a few great friends.
I used to suffer from migraines while I was still in high school, but eventually they went away. So, maybe I still had them but just never noticed or they weren't as bad.
Anyhow, I do find ways to let off steam. But, buying purses (my secret passion) every day gets pretty expensive. Funny thing though....my H never wanted to spend time with me. He would always choose going out with his friends over spending time with me or the boys.
It got to the point where he was gone every single weekend and I was left at home to take care of the boys alone. And then sometimes during the week (depending on the weather) he would go out golfing, come home drunk and pass out at 6 or 7 pm. It was so frustrating and tiring. Mainly because I felt like a free baby sitter.
Anyhow, so since he's come out of MLC and I'm a (most of time) faithful DBer....he stays home with me. Because he knows that is what I need and the boys need. A Dad...and husband who is actually around. So, I am savoring every single second of it.
PS
To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides. - David Viscott
