Well it happened all over again, like I am replaying my life from 3 yrs ago.
Had plans to go hang out at exW house last nite after D10 went to bed. Around 9:45 I called to see if she was a sleep and she wasn't, she said she would call if she feel asleep soon or we can do it tom. Well I go to bed and around t 10:30 the phone rings, its exW saying she is asleep if you want to come over.
We watch tv for a little bit and then I ask her to come cuddle with me. We are kissing for a little and then I get the speech.
"I just don't think dating you right now is a good idea" "I just don't have those feelings like I should and its not fair to you to put your life on hold. Maybe down the line this could work, I don't have a crystal ball but maybe 6 mo or a year or even 6 weeks" "I like the way my life is right now"
You are doing nothing wrong, its me. I like all the time we spend together as a family."
I tell her I was not expecting any commiments from her and she was putting too much pressure on herself, I know she wants to date. She tells me she can't do that, she needs to be loyal at least to me.
So we were suppossed to go out Sat nite and I ask if she wants still wants to go. She said yes as long as it is as friends.
Should I go?
I feel so worn dowm.....how do I move past this? Is this still part of the MLC?
I want to move on with my life but I feel I can't knowing there is a possibility that she may come back.
I am feeling so stupid for trusting her with my feelings, thinking she changed. Here I am again not sleeping, stressed and feeling like a chump and she goes through life like nothing changed.
