Even the best of friends sometimes hurt each other deeply. That's the risk we take when we open our hearts to people. You know that it's worth it though. I can honestly say that even if we'd never had our D's and I had the chance to go back and do it again (even without being able to change anything) I wouldn't hesitate. The love I have had the privilege to share is worth everything. Even all this pain (sigh). It's who I am. It's making me who I was meant to be.
I always thought I could tell my H anything too. Right now though he isn't my H. That's why I can "not care". I guess to say I "dont care" isn't completely accurate. I have compassion for him and I care as I would for someone I don't know. That's b/c I don't know this man. I hope to have the opportunity to get to know him and maybe become friends and maybe build something from there.
No you didn't deserve this, but it doesn't change that it's happening. I'm not an optimist by nature, but try to look for the silver lining. If you need help there, maybe I can assist.
