Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

As I have said, no R talk has happened since we began piecing "this time" and this has been the longest period of time since the D bomb that things have been good w/ us. I think we are truly on our way, however, I think H is still working on "loving" me again in "that way." I know he loves me, but I also know that he had gotten so far away from any sort of "romantic love" for me that it's going to take awhile for him to truly feel that again and so I'm just being patient.

I'm just so glad that he is where he is right now; he's come a very long way. The fact that he is initiating S is a huge thing and tells me that he is finally "working" on our M too; it's not just me doing all the piecing.

Of course, there is always that doubt niggling in the back of my mind that he will "allow himself" to begin to feel like it's not worth the "effort and work" and allow himself to choose not to love me and keep our M together and our family together, however, I know I need to just let that go for now. PMA until he leaves and then just be supportive and loving and take care of our boys while he's gone.