Ok I have more to report..... I know something has got to give
Last night I was sound a sleep, both girls tucked away in their beds and the W is at work. The phone rings and abruptly awakens me from my sleep. I look up and notice it is 1:15 AM, I grab the phone and do not recognize the number. When I answered the person hangs up. I start to awake, shake the fog from my mind and realize who that number belonged to. Well the phone rings again and this time they do not hang up. The OMW called me last night to let me know that her H and my W were together. I told her that I did not want to know and besides what can I do about it. You can tell she was desperate and was looking for an end to this maddness. I can relate, but I know that I cannot stop the A - it needs to end on its own. I tried to encourage her to stop snooping, because it doesn't help anybody and told her that it was killing her emotionally. As much as we want it to be over with it needs to end on its own. I encouraged her to read the book of Proverbs and pointed out that my W is the seductress woman and her H is the wicked man described in this book. I also told her to buy DR and read it twice before she reacted to anything again. I also told her about this site. So the OM W might start DB'ing. Was this a big no no? I want to help her and pray that her M can be healed, so I felt that was the least I could do. We will see if she takes my advice or not.
Once my W got home I did tell her about the phone call and asked about the accusations that the OMW was making. We then talked for a good 30 minutes were she again told me that God is telling her that her job, our marraige, is done. This is one of the most hurtfull things my W has said to me and as you know she recently has said a lot. How demeaning is that to our M, our R, that it can be disposed of so easily. What a slap in the face to God that she is using him to justify this sin. Oh well... I cannot change her feelings.
Today is my D5 B-day. Happy Birthday!!! I was journaling this morning on the train thinking back when we had her. The emotions that I felt that day were just as deep and powerful as what I feel now, but, they were of complete joy and being in awe the miracle that I just witnessed. It is a memory and feeling that I will never forget and will always hold near and dear to my heart.
