I am also the type who talks very fast and I am afraid I am not going to say everything I need too. So much is unsaid with this R and it is infuriating.
I know I am hurt by the OW and the fact that H lies to me all the time...I also am dealing with the fact that this M is over. H said yesterday that even if he did not have OW he still would not come home. I did not make him happy. I wanted to say but didn't that we make our own happiness. I didn't think fast enough to say this.
I guess I can't stand to be blamed when this is not my fault...H said he blamed me for the situation and I said the situation we are in right now is his fault...H is having an A....no response.
I have every intention of keeping him informed of D's activities, I did not keep the practice from him intentionally...I am sure that is how it sounded when I said you haven't called or seen your kids in a week!
Mrs, I would have more compassion for H if he was fighting in a war...that would be a noble choice for being away from home...right now there is nothing noble about what H is doing...
God I hope my L is strong enough to get me what I deserve for my kids to live a good life!! I am so worried financially right now b/c H doesn't have a job again and who knows when he is going to be giving me any money for the bills!!
Mrs, you should be very proud of yourself for going back to school...nursing is such a great profession! you have to be a compassionate, caring individual for doing a job like that (I can tell you are!) You will feel independent from H and will not have to rely on him as much...all good things. I am happy I have a stable teaching job, I feel needed by my students everyday and I am 1/2 way to my masters degree. Right now I can't concentrate on going back to school...was going to take classes this summer but I don't think with what is to come between now and 6/1 (possibly last court date for D) that my mind will be on school...who knows maybe in the fall!
I do need to talk to H today, b/c he is not working I need help with watching the kids...do you think I should apologize for yesterday or pretend it did not happen...I would maybe just say that I understand why he hung up on me and I did not intentionally keep the practice from him....What do you think? How should I phrase it?
Mrs, how is your sitch going as far as the L's and progress?
