Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

Ok, guys, here's an update. He actually initiated last night. He looked @ me across the table (after boys were in bed) and said "I know you want it" - well, I went to take a shower & he came in & joined me. Yeah!!!

Then, he initiated again this a.m., but again I don't know for sure if he "O'd" this a.m. Last night he did, but not sure about this a.m. I always knew before when he did, because like I said we hardly ever had sex and so it was almost instant and I always knew when he did. Things are different now in that we go longer, etc. and I'm not always sure if & when he "O's" and he used to just be done once he did, but now we go for awhile even after he does. Anyway, not sure if he did this a.m. or not. Didn't ask. Figured I wasn't going to go there anymore. I can't let it bother me. I think the fact that we have been having sex pretty much every day and it's the times when we have just had sex and then do again that he sometimes doesn't "O." Maybe it's just the amount of sex and the fact that w/ the AD, it takes longer sometimes.

I know the fact that he is leaving is really starting to bother him. He has a history of depression, as does his dad -- his dad was even hospitalized for it -- and H allows himself to get very stressed out about things. He seemed really down this a.m. and I'm going to just try to be very supportive of him these next 3 wks before he leaves b/c I know it is hard leaving the boys (and hopefully me).

I'm not going to allow my mind to start going wild about what it COULD BE. PMA, right??