Oh god...I screwed up again!! Got in a huge fight with H last night! conversation started off ok..told me he lost job on Friday and he was upset b/c it blindsided him....I told him that was too bad...but then...I said I know how it feels to be blindsided and it sucks!! UGH

Then he asked me why I didn't tell him about D5 tball practice...instead of me saying I forgot, it was a very busy weekend...I said I was going to tell you but you haven't seen or contacted us in a week!! H then said I was petty and if it had to do with the kids he should know about it! H never asks about D5 and dance lessons...

Then I got into it...how he lied to me and how he is having an A.
H said even if he didn't have a "friend" he would not come home because I did not make him happy...H said he was ready to leave in September and asked if I noticed him not wearing his ring...I said yes and he told me he had swollen fingers!! I told him he left on a bed of lies and that he has abandoned me and the kids...

I also told him I will not call him because when I do his tone is downright nasty..didn't answer me.

Told him financially he is putting me in jeopardy and he needs to pay half of the household bills. Didn't answer me.

I asked how he could do this to his family and not even think about telling me he was unhappy...no answer

I told him as far as I can tell he is living the good life...new clothes, tanning, new laptop....

And then he hung up on me.

30 minutes later he came to get the kids and I asked if he hung up on me on purpose...he said yes he could not get a word in edge wise...I thanked him (sarcastically) for having enough respect for me to talk about all this...I then said maybe when he can stop lying to me we can talk...didn't answer again!

H was going to L today to probably see my counterclaim...

H makes me feel so guilty!! I did not keep info from him!! H never called and then the weekend got busy and I forgot...My MIL told him she had practice. H was all pissed because he wanted to buy her a baseball glove???? I forgot he told me that so I got her one...
I did none of this intentionally! How do I do this anymore? He really doesn't care that what he is doing hurts me and the kids so much!