Yeah...today was a big no no...please get ahold of yourself and quit asking him if he is working on coming home and hugging him...you WILL send him running and then you WILL crumble like a cookie in the desert!!!...there won't be enough Xanax to get you through that!!!
Your right...you should have declined Easter invite...he should have to explain things...You know that...so I don't know how to help you anymore with that...
***** he's going to put off doing anything about this with her until he's forced into it with some sort of deadline.*****
WRONG!!!!...He is not going to do anything till he is SURE OF YOU!!!!....you can't force him to make a decision to RETURN...but you sure as heck can reinforce his decisions to STAY where he is with OW!!!
And again...you make me so nervous talking about wanting him to come home...I was so sure the time was right for me...I now see that in Feb...when H quit his job...things changed with him again...I feel used, abused (emotionally), deprived, not cherished, not cared for....believe me....it is better to be alone!...I can see H didn't have time to really finish fixing his own messes before I opened the door and welcomed him home...
PLEASE DON'T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKE I HAVE....I terrifies me that I have come this far and now wonder if I am going to loose it all....Tam...I don't think you could survive this all again...so please...I am literally begging you to DETACH, TAKE CARE OF YOU, FOCUS ON GETTING YOURSELF WELL GROUNDED, AND MAKE SURE HE IS WELL GROUNDED BEFORE HE COMES HOME!!!!...It is better to put him off then to throw open the door, your arms, your heart, your bed....I am eating my own words now....and believe me it makes me sick...and I am putting my children through it with me again!!!!
Tam...honestly...If you start down that path....I will have to detach from your posts...you see my sensitivity allows me to feel what others do...and right now....I couldn't carry that pain....so PLEASE...prepare yourself to be strong!!!!
