Sigh. I really have not come to terms with what I want concerning the baby sitch. Not sure I want to open a can of worms--you know? On the other hand, I don't want this to come back to slap our family in the face in the future. Nor can I think it's okay to just pretend there isn't a possibility that he has other children. I think he should be responsible for that.
H seems to feel it's all beyond his control and doesn't appear to be concerned in the least.
I talked to my C today. He said to keep following the voices inside me. I still feel that I need to give this more time to see how everything shakes out. The logical thing to do, when viewing a pro-con list is to GET OUT NOW. But there's still this part of me that can't let go.
On the boundaries, I'm working on them. Many of them are in direct opposition to the status quo with H, and though he's showing me that he does want me and our family, the real deep things that have to change are still non-negotiable with him.
