Well, I've left SO's house. "Moved in" with his mother. If you can call living out of suitcases moved in. We've actually been here since 4/01. That was a bad weekend. Lot's of crap happened and I finally just couldn't take anymore. It was best to leave. So I did.

I've made arrangements for storing our things at his brothers until I find a place for me & the girls to live. Working on coordinating a moving truck & manpower to get our stuff out ASAP. Have to register D8 for school - they don't go back until this Thursday here in this district.

Went to court this past Thursday for a Support Hearing and was granted $300/week plus he will pay 100% medical insurance coverage. That should be enough to cover rent and some daycare expenses for me.

So that's about it. Easter, after telling me & D8 two different stories about what time he'd be here, he didn't show up until almost noon. Last to arrive, then the 1st to leave. Left around 2:45. Took D8 with him to his house so she could go to work with him.

Monday, he got here arund 4 PM. Invited himself to dinner (his mother wasn't here); then fell asleep on the couch. I couldn't believe it. I woke him up, telling him he needed to go home. He says "I can't sleep very well at home alone." WTF kind of a comment is that. I didn't bother with a response. Then, when he was leaving, bent over and kissed me and said: "I'm sorry you have to live here. Are you sad?" Again, WTF, dude? And again, no response from me.

Overall, I actually feel very lost. Trying to pull everything together. Rentals are not easy to come by around here. I don't like the thought of having to be here (at his mom's) for a long time. Her place is small; the kids literally only have some of their clothes. I hope something comes up soon. Now I know what a refugee feels like.

I guess on some levels it's better to be here - it limits his contact with me. He's emailed and/or called most days. Even leaving messages on my cell during the night saying he'd call me on the house phone - but it's his mom's place and he doesn't want to wake everyone up. So, I guess that part is good.

We go to court on 4/23 for the Custody hearing. That's got me nervous. I know when the lawyer brings up supervised visitation, he's going to go ballistic. I guess we shall see what happens. I'm documenting everything, if Easter is any indication, it doesn't really look like he's too interested in spending much time with his kids. When he left yesterday, he never even asked / said anything about when he wanted to see them again.

And, so for me, one day at a time.