2940,

We are here for you. Like Virginia said let it out. You can't keep it in especially when you are alone. It makes it way worse.
We are here to help and support you.
Just think it was another Holiday and I think, I made it and it was pleasant maybe not completely the way I wanted it but it was a start. We can't expect to much. Expectations are the the cause of those melt downs we get alittle and want a lot. Patience is the key.
We are here my friend.