Gracey, It seems first that you need to get over some of your anger and stop hurting him every time you see him. No matter what happens, you will need to be civil to him since you have kids together. I know it is so darn tough but I think YOU need to be the first to send up the white flag. Check out the list of 180's on Chicki's thread... There's a good start of what you need to do. Start doing them and see what happens. What do you have to lose?