Fig, I am trying to work on me and have been. What is so difficult is getting pulled back in to the drama. I know I do it to myself a lot but im conflicted. Either i sit and act like she is not even home while she walks around the house bitching or I try to have nice chit chat. Either way I look like Im trying or playing a game. Im just so sick of the crap. Im a fixer. I fix things. It hard to sit back. Both separations I moved out for her. My life was turned upside down as where my family and friends who took me in. Anyway Im just tired inside!! I wait and wait then blow up. As for working on myself I did a year ago when I moved out. I formed a band and we played out. it was great and my W seemed to like me doing it. The band broke up last month which sucked. Im trying to make a new one but its takes time.
