feeling conflicted, worried about his motives--is this for real? Compulsive lying and manipulation...these things don't just disappear after five days of effort. And what of the possibility that the five days have been for show? So why am I waking each morning with anxiety in my heart?
Big hugs hon))))))))))) congrats!!!
Welcome to the world of piecing, for the next few months you will be looking up, waiting for the "other shoe" to drop. Been there, done that. When you will just have to almost talk yourself into trusting him. Of course it is normal you feel this way!! after all the lies a betrayal you are bound to feel guarded.
He'll have to earn your trust brick by brick as time goes by, it has been a yr since my H is back, and I'm telling you, I never thought I'd see the day when I'd stop worrying about him talking to ow again, when I'd stop check his car, calls, etc. But it is here, and I don't feel that aprehension any more. It is a daily challenge hon, you've been hurt and you wonder if you should keep your walls up. Nothing in this world is 100% for sure. So you can either live in fear he might be deceiving you again, or you can slay your fear and remember that you are in charge of your happiness, with or without him you are a whole person, no matter waht happens.
If I have suggested this book already forgive me, but it has helped me so much in my healing process that I recommend it to everyone, it is "healing the hurt in your marriage".
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
