Need advice

[want2believe]

Thanks Afraid,

You're probably right in that I'm reading things in here, that may not be true. I need release my feelings thought somehow with WAH
though, without alienating him.

Things have been OK lately, not great, but not bad either. I know
I went a little over board this morning though again. We had s** last night, and WAH got up afterwards to have a smoke. WAH didn't come back to bed until after 3a.m. When I checked this morning, I noticed he'd been watching porn for almost 2 hours last night.
Needless to say, it's doesn't feel too great knowing you're H is watching porn after just having s** with me. When I asked him what he was doing until 3a.m. this morning, he said he was just wired. It really bothered me, so I called him and asked him why he had to watch porn after having s** with me. He lied and said he wasn't, and that he wasn't lying to me. I told him that I
was trying to trust him, but it didn't help when I know he's lying to me. I told him how I knew. He just laughed at me, and told
me we'd talk about it later, and dropped the call. I don't think he'll bring it up though, unless I do again.

I still don't feel great about this whole situation, and maybe I shouldn't have said anything, but I know it helps me that I did say something about it. I can let it go now, rather than having
it eat away at me for days like it would have if I hadn't of said
anything.