Well, H stayed in his room all yesturday sleeping. I know he expected some kind of a fight regarding the kids staying at OW house, but instead I stayed upbeat and in good spirits esepcially since I got prayed over at church and God has some wonderful things to tell me about I am " full" of Him and I needed to let it all out in order to be able to eat up the giant that I was fighting! I did my weeeken chores all the while singing outloud to the radio. I had thought about taking the girls out to Chuckee Cheese and create some of our Own family fun time since hearing about OW's egg hunt was wearing down. H stayed in his room until he heard the girls getting ready to go and all excited about it. H started to prepare ameal (first time in a long time) and as we were leaving asked me if I was going to be ther to eat his food, I tink I soemwhat surprised and thoughful for just one minute and then said yes. Upon our return the girls were showing daddy what i bought them and he asked you got that at Chuckee Chees, no she said we went to the beach for the festival, H said " oh, to see mommys boyfreind" I ignored his comment and went to my room.
I noticed that the longer I stay those are the times he doesn't usually go anywhere, but as soon as I ask him to watch the girls for me for a few hours, it like he takes them out of spite to OW.
I did notice something in his body language I thought was wierd, but I know the look ( almost of hurt) when I told him I was going out. Odd? I think he really does think I am seeing someone? UGH!! So, if I stay home I can't GAl but I guess I will not leave him w/ the girls anymore either. I no longer ask him to go w/ us or w/ just me anywhere (big change) and I think this is why he thinks there is someone else.
This is all so exhausting and I feel like if i only had the $, I would get the D statred myself....sigh
