Making the leap - Hopefully wount Jinx it!

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I start out with the best intentions to, and always seem to flip flop! I know that i am going to destroy my marriage!
We had a bit of an issue yesterday, my doing, been on the computer, checked cell phone records and saw there were 2 text message sent while we were with family, now he never normally sends text, so of course I was upset, and he can tell, so he kept asking, and asking and finally I told him, of course he denied it, which I know is crap.
So anyways, we talked and he said he wount live much longer like this, I said I understood, however I stood by him threw all of his issue's never berated, yelled anything, however he doesn't seem to be able to give me the same consideration, he sais he doesn't know why!
So basically things have been left like this, he says he wants the marriage, and loves me, but I have to wonder if he really does.