Didn't get to see the kids much as om was round family home and I am in no hurry to meet up with him.
W never ceases to amaze me, you'd think w would want to spend Easter Sunday with the children but no she fobbs them off on her parents and goes out with om. If I'd have known that was happening I would have been with them. Oh well.
Phoned kids today and was advised om had left the building so decided to go round for a visit. W kept her distance, she came and offered me 2 small easter eggs and I declined. I just said "no thanks", I could tell this upset her but I just couldn't accept them from her. This is probably not good DBing but I just went with what I was feeling and I was not feeling too good.
W will just have to handle it. Really feel like I'm at a crossroads now. Hang on or to hell with it. You'd think that after 16 odd months of this I'd be more aloof but today just got to me.
As for treating w like a friend it is hard to do if it is not reciprocated. D12 suggested I stay for dinner tonight and w said no without missing a beat. Kinda tells me she don't want me around. I don't particularly want to be around her either at the moment, so I guess the feeling is mutual.
They really couldn't come up with better stuff in soap opera's. Pity The kids and I have to go through this though. It would be nice to just be able to change channels to some lite entertainment for a change.
