Today started off uneventfull. We went to church, great service, and had family over for lunch. The party was an Easter/birthday party for D5. The party was nice, it is always nice to be around family. I haven't said anything to my parents about my sitch until today. I told my dad a little about what was going on. He did not have much to say, but I wasn't really expecting him to say much. After everyone left I went for a run which it was nice to clear my head. After I showered up I decided to get out of the house for sometime for myself. I actually packed a bag incase I decided to not come home for the night. Well the wife was not thrilled that I was able to just leave and have sometime to myself. She tried to make me feel guilty for taking off and why can't she do that she tells me.... Everytime I want time to myself she says she gets yelled at by her parents and sister. Well I told her that was her own guilt and not mine. I told her that she gets plenty of alone time it is up to her as to how she uses it. I mentioned it did not matter if she went into work or went to be by herself, her time alone is plenty and it is up to her how she uses it. I again re-stated that we should be in counseling together, which she acknowledge. I then left and as I left I said to myself F-it, I turned around and told her I did not care if she couldn't reciprocate my feelings but that I loved her and left.
I went to a friends house for a while and I am now home. Hopefully I will be allowed in bed. We will see.
