Well I sent a text message to his phone at 11:00 this morning. It is just after 9:00 pm and nothing! \:\( I did it b/c it was the right thing to do... and while I didn't expect him to respond... I had hoped!

I just don't know what is going on in his head.

Sometimes I think I am just crazy for still being there for him, for still loving him and still caring about him. Sometimes I think maybe I am wasting my time on a man who may not really love me. But then I think about the situation and I think about him and I just see how "sick" he is. I just see that all this is not all his fault. And I think back to the promises I made to him and and sigh... have a good cry and continue with my day.

I know that some people have been doing this so much longer than I have... but in June we will have been divorced for a year. And maybe this doubt that I am doing the right thing is normal. But right now I just feel tired.

I am emotionally exhausted. I just want someone to help me "recharge" myself. I just need that safe place to fall. I need that kind shoulder to cry on. He need some one to help pick me up.

Thanks for listening...
Hope everyone had a happy easter!
R2