I wanted to tell you after all the advice and confidence building I gave you. I stumbled with it to. My H came for the night for Easter today. WE had a pleasant conversations mostly business but I listened and we had a bottle of wine. He slept in the same bed a few hugs no Ml. He was real complimentary about the way I looked and everything. We went to church I fixed dinner and then he left an went to her house. Enough of my sitch I just posted a differnet thread for advice. I just had a hard time with it.
I just wanted to tell you so you know even as hard as I was trying I stumbled and felt bad again. I am here for you because right now there is nothing that can ripe your heart right out of your chest like the things they do and say. I guess its wanting to hear or experience that little thing that will show hope and then they ruin it by some action. I even told you not to expect to much and guess what I did. I expected a little after I let my guard down.
I don't know which is worse the real nice approach or the standoffish approach that they do to us. It is very hard to understand but then again should we even try to understand..
It helps me to write to you because it makes me think and come down and think about it and get control.
You get such great advice from everyone. I have learned so much. Sometimes I think we take 3 steps and take one back.
I hope your Easter went OK....I hope you made it through OK!
Really think about the move. I still think make your office somewhere in your house that you will enjoy being there. Change the atomsphere so it makes it easier to concentrate. I like you have to really work on focusing on the business stuff. I had to get better because I had animals that needed water hauled to them evey few days. I had books that I had let go that need to be at the accountants (my H brother who is a partner is the accountant)he did know why all of a sudden I had not gotten things done.
Financially you have to get focused because by not doing what is important we are costing our selves a great deal. Not only Financially but emoitionally too. Its a spiral in a deep black hole and we have to become strong to stop the ourselves from falling further. I want you to grab the hands that are reaching out to you and pull yourself up. I am with you. (Sorry I vented about H) You will become stronger. Just remember I will and Can over come this and will survive and be better. Now by me telling you this I feel better. Hopefully you will too. Hang in there. Thanks for listening. It still amazes me how much everyone situation sounds alike.
IMLIN,
I hope H didn't ruin your sons Baptism? Did he act ok during that? Even after all you have been thru there is always hurdles. You are such a strong person to have made it thru what you have and still are the backbone of your family.
Hang in there my friend becasue we are here for you to.
Have a good night 2940. I hope all have the same feeling that is it nice to be able to visit with you guys...
