How do you keep a smile as your kids return with all the happiness of all that they did w/ her? I feel like all that I said regarding the boundaries went right out the door. So now I am just feeling "dried up". Do you know what I mean? He has been so mean w/ all the verbal abuse and evrything else that I feel like all my love is slowly going away. I guess this makes it easier for me to detach.
Does your H still live at home with you? I wonder if it would be easier if he were to move out. I would'nt have to see him come and go and I coould hide my hurt better w/out him seeing my facial expressions of sadness. Eventhough I think at times I have gotten the actress award at hiding my true feelings. I said my peace and now I feel like nothing I say will make any difference and thats why I will keep or at least try to keep my peace and not say anything at all. How can I go dark? Can you give me any samples? It has got to be hard w/ him still at home.
