Alright this sucks.... I have the kids tonight which does not suck, but I as the day goes on it seems to be getting harder and harder for me. Thank goodness for this site it gives me some relief.
We are having a Easter/Birthday party tomorrow at our home. So I have been trying to straighten things up around the house. Here is the sucky part for me. While in our bedroom I found a letter that my wife wrote and gave to me Christmas day. It was a reminder of how much my wife has loved me and knowing were we are currently at in our R. Christmas. Christmas. She wrote this to me for Christmas and few weeks later she is starting an A. I should type the whole thing out and you can see for yourself how amazing my wife is and why this all is so devistating to me.
Here is few small samples from the letter my W wrote to me for Christmas. "You amaze me, in how you continually love me. That you have not given up on me..on us. You have not settled on second best in our relationship with one another. Your pursuit for the abundant life in Christ is becoming more and more evident this past year. I am truely a blessed woman to be chosen to be your bride"
"Thankyou for being my best friend. For this is the best gift I could have recieved this year"
"I commit to becoming a wife...your wife, who finds complete satisfaction in her God and the man He has blessed her with."
"EmtnRllrCstr, I eagerly await what the next 10 years has in store for us. More importantly I can't wait to experiance the memories we will make and share between us"
"This Christmas I choose you....I choose us, I choose our children. Loving you and laughing with you."
How does one go from feeling like this to having absolutely no feeling towards me in such a short period of time. How? How? How?
