Of course you were afraid, and you should have been. My question is, and maybe this has been answered before?
Is this the first time he's done anything like this to you?
--it's the 5th time in the whole 13 years that he laid a hand on me--
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Has he shown any sign or remorse for what he did? Has he comme to you and told you he was sorry? Any guilt?
--u're right, H didn't apologize or anything--
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How do you feel about this now? Are you afraid he might do this again, or maybe worse?
--what happened made me more afraid of him. i avoid H in order to avoid conversation that would spark his temper again.
i feel it's a status qou right now. it's like being there, but not there,...... like a zombie.
GAL would be an option. but wouldn't it selfish of me again to just think about my self?....end my suffering? for sure i can't bring the Ds with me.....H would not give them to me.....i can't afford to raise them. on the otherhand, who'd take care of the Ds? would it be better for them or worst? i've seen children from broken homes suffer. D10 say she'd commit suicide if i leave. it's painful hearing that from her......so sensitive to whats happening in our home. phew.... i can't forgive myself even more.
phew....
