Trying to piece at last

[hurtingbad]

Well I've been to work today and am just journalling.

Had a great afternoon yesterday and had a great night out, told H before I went out that I would be late home and if he wanted to he could stay over or just sleep on my bed and i would wake hiim up when i got in. He said ok. When i got home he was asleep on my sofa so woke him up and said im home to which he jumped off the sofa put on his trainers gave me a quick peck and went. Was so upset I had offered him the opportunity to stayover and he didnt seem to want it which i thought was fair enough but also felt rejected. After he had gone had a bit of a weep which I havent done for weeks now. So was annoyed at myself for letting him get to me.

Feel a bit better today but seemed to have pulled back away from him a bit probably scared of rejection again lol

Am taking the kids walking in the forest tomorrow before i go to work so we should have a good day.

Going to bed now will update tomorrow

Hugs HB