well i just got back from Florida. I had a great time with the girls and talking to my mom was helpful.
I just kept telling myself that i can either be happy at the present moment with the good things i have in my life and the fun that we're having, or I can start dwelling on all the bad that the future may hold. Anyways, I was 90% successful, so I'll take that as a success.
Anyways, I got back last night, and my wife and I talked a little. I feel like even though she knows it will destroy the family, and she won't find anyone better, and even finding someone better would just be a complicated ordeal with the kids and life, she is still stuck on this train to crazy.
Its almost like she is working herself up, and getting used to the idea of the whole thing. I guess I need to too. No more R talks. I told her I love her, and I would not give up on her. (her father gave her up for adoption when she was 2 to a stepdad and she still has issues from that). Anyways, she knows my character, and she knows how I feel. Now i guess I should take your advice and just be the best man I can and avoid painful talks.
She did bring up the possibility of getting a counselor for herself and possibly getting a new marriage counselor. I'm not sure what I should do. I feel like a marriage counselor is a waste of time if she isn't ready to imagine our life together. Should i bring it up again and ask if she is seriously considering seeing a counselor for her own issues with her mom and dad?
