OK, this waiting is killing me. I am getting quite emotional this weekend. I keep getting so obessed about next week's dinner. It does not help that seems like the few people who knows about this are all busy so I have no one to talk to. Nights are difficult because I miss him.

I cannot stop thinking about next week. OK, I will just ask you all. What would your reaction be depending on his decision? He will tell me one of three: "I told her bye bye....", "I don't think I can leave her, therefore I will leave you", "I still cannot decide....may be I will just leave both of you". I knoow I will be civil in any of the above. I am just very concerned about how I should react. I do not know why I should be so concerned about this, may be because I think the "wrong" reaction will send him away? Or am I trying to preserve my own dignity? I do not know.

Any thoughts or ideas about how to prepare for the BIG day for me?

M 38, H 38, two sons
Met 20 years ago
Married 13 years
Bomb: Oct, 2006
DB: Started in Dec, 2006
H moved out for 3 weeks in Mar, 2007
H back home and piecing?