Friends, I went to my usual Friday night dance venue. It used to be a respite from my W, but now she's been showing-up these past two weeks. I guess I'm getting some early practice for the party next week!
It gives me an opportunity to work on detachment in social settings. It's going to take some practice. She's seemed interested in mainly dancing with the two best guy dancers there, and wasn't available for me. She doesn't acknowledge my presence in social settings. It's hard watching her have fun and laugh with other guys, when we don't have that at this time.
I decided that I would stay my usual two hours, even though I felt like sneaking out of there, an hour early. I took the opportunity to have a conversation with acquaintances I know. I am an excellent listener, and can allow a person to talk at length about topics of interest.
I did leave feeling like I was proactive in initiating conversations, danced with the ladies when they needed a partner, and asked a young lady to dance who was new to the venue. I think I did OK. Hopefully, I can get to a point where I'm not as affected by her actions. For now, I have to tolerate the discomfort.
I didn't ask my W to dance, as she was out on the floor mainly with the two better guy dancers. If she's looking for a partner, I will glady dance with her, but she looked busy tonight.
CL
CL 53 W 54 M 20 yrs. 03'-09' Separation + Old Patterns + GAL 10-14' Piecing
"The Master allows things to happen. She shapes events as they come."
