If you are that far behind in work, then focus 100% on it. If deadlines aren't being met because you don't keep up...that's YOUR choice in doing so...YOU are choosing to drag your business down...why? Because someone doesn't love you like he did in the beginning of your marriage? How utterly stupid is that.
IMO, you are expecting him to rescue you...he won't. By not keeping up your end, it shows him how helpless you are, that you can't segregate work from the personal issues...that equals weakness...another sign that he abhors.
You need to stop this "woe is me" pity party and get cracking on the work...or you'll both lose.
Excuses....he started the A in Nov. 2006, he had already one foot out the door thinking of leaving you. Don't kid yourself Tam, or me...what does he have to do - spell it out? Do you see how dysfunctional your rational thinking is?
Tam, I care enough to help you, while out ill...but you should have been over these anxiety attacks long ago. Do I think you should be on meds...no...you need to face your psychological problems that you are running from...not hide them with drug inducing calmness...until you do, you will constantly need something to prop you up.
You have everything at your disposal...now start using it and stop, stop, stop these pity parties...my gosh woman, have some dignity, pride in yourself. You're acting like a child...face the music of lovingly detaching from him or keep neglecting the business, not showing up, crying, spying, melting down, not paying bills and lose him for good...Your choice. Focus on the job - like he does....
If you want to wallow in misery...I choose not to help you...but if you want help in changing yourself, I will help. Let me know...
