The darkness does not endure!

[BeingMe]

GAL, yes, but never too busy to post. I have been posting on other threads, and lurking. How's life treating you, Phoenix?

Not much happening on the my marital front ... same ol', same ol'! Lots happening with our children, though ... too much, actually. I am still in shock with my D19 informing us of her pregnancy, last week. She is, apparently, about 3 months along. She is still with her older, idiot bf. We haven't a clue what to do, so just biding our time, until or if, she needs us. Our S19 has been working, and plans to start his upgrade classes next week, at the local college. I am pleased that he is being somewhat more logical, and proactive in making plans for his future. We are also happy he is home. Our D14 continues to CTR, and we are very proud of her. Our eldest D26, will be moving to Illinois at the end of June. Her H is in the USAF, and that is where they are being sent (we had hoped for WA, but it was not to be).

My H started his new job, and so far, is enjoying it. We are just concerned about how much taxes we will be paying, as he is taxed by the US government first, then Canadian taxes, to make up the difference. Canadian taxes is much higher than US, so we are expecting it will be quite a lot. Oh well, that's life on planet earth, 'eh!

I have exams next week, and am rethinking this correspondence study, especially in this line of work ... personal fitness training. I am looking for somewhere here where I can finish the certification. I am also continuing to write, but it has been slow going. Too much family stuff happening. I do try to write at least for an hour everyday. I also have to prepare to give a 10 minute talk on Sunday, about the Atonement of Christ. I feel eminently unworthy to give it, but will do my best. I used to be very fearful of public speaking, and attended Toastmasters for a year, and it helped a lot, but I haven't given a speech or talk in almost 2 years, so am rather nervous.

Life has been busy, but satisfying, so no real complaints. My H has still not started to plug in, emotionally, but I didn't really expect it. I have spoken to him, and can only hope he heard. He has rarely ever really followed through when it comes to my needs, so I doubt if that's going to change. I still predict that I will eventually walk unless things change soon, or at least see him doing something that will facilitate some change. But I see nothing ... no reading R books, no going to see a C, no bringing up R talks with me, no ML, no romance, no really taking the time to listen to me, and communicate with me ... just the usual off-handed, repetitive show of affection ... the same three pecks hullo and good-bye and the odd hugs. We do go on dates ... to dinner or movie, so it's not all bad, just boring. Oh, and he did buy me a beautiful eternity ring for our 21st anniversary at the end of March, which is a rather romantic gift for him. I took him out to dinner.

So, there it is! My present life in a nutshell, as it were. Fortunately, I am happy with myself, and find I need affection, ML, romance, and interaction with my H, less and less. I get my need for affection from my D14 (lots of hugs, hanging out, giggles, etc.), and communication from S19 (we have similar tastes in books, movies, and stuff to chat about). As for romance and ML ... hey, I had my day, and I just replace it with writing, studying, and art. Nobody said life would be perfect, and sometimes we just have to make do.

Take care!