I feared this thread ... I have turned away from it so many times since you put it up yesterday. The first time I looked, you were the only one to have written anything. I have come here many times trying to come to grips with my fears ... so here goes (I am all teary eyed now,great)
I fear spending the second half of my life as a relationship failure.
I fear spending the second half of my life broke, lonely, unloved, bitter, as the "crazy old lady down the block" who all of the school kids run from.
I fear that my first love will never return, never love me again.
I fear that my children will hate me.
I fear that I will live and die alone.
I fear never loving or being loved again.
I fear that I will continue to be alone in a room full of people, never really connecting or clicking with people again.
I fear seeing my H with someone else.
I fear that he seems so happy with his decision and that he will be angry with me forever.
