Thanks for pulling my thread up from the depths. Yeah haven't posted in a long time. Nowadays I tend to pop on look for someones thread I'm familiar with and pop in quickly. I always seem to find some quick inspiration. Kind of a wierd random thing like tossing sticks to read the I Ching or something. Seems to work though.
Yes things have continued to improve but no I haven't gotten any. Are you kidding me BJ. You'd definitely be the first to know. Well third actually but you know what I mean. I'd fly half way round the world just to tell you if I had to.
I was in a bit of a funk the other day when I saw your posts and really unsure of what to do. I had some major stress thrown my way with some major decisions to be made and things to handle that would definetely be very touchy. I became very resentful that I didn't have her emotional support. I battle with that occassionally. The thought process is that it's so much easier to be strong with a woman's support and when there is a need for great strength I get a bit resentful. But then of course I figure out what I already know is true, that I need to bring the strength up myself.
So being in a funk I was considering a fairly rash move. Then I got on here to just glance at a thread and there was my own. I immediatly ran into Sven's "stay the course" and realized that was the proper course of action. So I did.
And lo and behold before I was headed out on my mission she approached me, pressed her body against mine and hugged me and kissed me. Huh imagine that. I had given up on her support and she gave it to me. Go figure. (yeah I know, that's how it works)
So a quick synopsis.
We are the best friends anyone can be. Love to spend time together and we do. We each make sure to to take time out of our day for each other. We both take care of each other very well (she brought me a foot bath the other night, I brought her flowers I picked on my jog yesterday)... But she sleeps on the couch.
I'd have to say we've worked out any problems we had. Very seldom fight but when we do its quickly make up time. No passive aggressive behaviour (any more). Things are really really good between us. Except the physical part and that's killing me.
Sooo... I don't know. Progress is so incredibly slow but there is progress. No more bad cycles. All good now. Progress is just so slow that it often feels like there isn't any.
But I know there is. And that's frustrating.
Thanks for getting me to post. It's a good time to do so.
