Valentines day massacre

[outtaluck]

Thanks Alaska,

I have to be the one to leave as we rent house from her grandmother...so family is sticking together.

I would have left, but I really have no place to go...money is a big issue as we've always been living week to week and I put all I had into the household. Right now I have no job...just been laid off....and although I just bought a junk car, its still not registered yet. She has given me till the end of the month to go... I'm taking advantage so I can search online for jobs and to sell stuff...also do not want to live with parents....looking desperately for other options.

It seems so long ago that I was massaging her...but those have stopped. She doesn't even sleep in the same room any more. She does a good job of avoiding me when she is home...which is less and less.

I know what it is...and its nothing good. Once I am out I don't imagine looking back. Meanwhile I'm just trying to deal with the pain and still keep moving forward somehow....