I know you are hurting really bad, but you can not become an addict over this. This will cause you to really lose your H. Lin has stressed to you the dangers of these medications, have you looked up the side effects on your own yet? Let me tell you something, doctors DO NOT know everything. They do not have all the information stored in their memory banks. Sometimes they overlook things. You need to talk to your pharmacist and do reasearch on your own. You have to find alternatives.
Seven years ago when I went through this, I did it on my own with two kids work and going to college. It is har really hard but I just don't think the medicaine is helping you. If it were you would not be having all these bad bouts. I think you should try not taking anything for a week and see how many huge setbacks you would have. However, at this point you will probably experience withdrawal.
Are you seeing a general doctor or a psychologist? I think it is time for a psychologist who deals specifically with mind altering drugs.
My father had a stroke last year beause the doctors failed to read the medicines warnings. The warning was "do not give to patients with history of strokes or heart problems." No one at that stupid hospital read that warning. It was the main warning and now my dad can't talk to us. He can not use his right arm. He was bed ridden for six weeks and could not walk.
I do not want to make you upset but I want you to really think about these pills they have given you. Maybe its time for a ne doctor. I do not think the doctor has your best interest in mind right now.
When I was depressed over my sitch with my then boyfriend now husband seven years ago I was a mess too. Always upset. WIthdrew from college that semester (I did go back the next semester to finish though) I moved into my parents living room. I was so so so so sad. My dad told me one day.
"HS THIS IS IT! YOU STOP MOPING AROUND FEELING SORRY FOR YOURSELF, YOU NEED TO GET ANGRY REALLY REALLY ANGRY FIND YOUR STRENGTH GIRL CUT THE CRAP!!!! YOU DO NOT NEED THAT MAN. NO MAN WANTS SOMEONE WHO FEELS SORRY FOR THEMSELVES. EVEN IF HE CANT SEE YOU HE KNOWS BECAUSE HE KNOWS YOU AND HE WILL SENSE IT WHEN HE IS AROUND YOU. GIVE HIM NOTHING TO SENSE!!!!"
It was hard work but it worked, plus I did not want my dad to see me all upset anymore.
