Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

I think for me, I was extremely unhappy about a lot of things in our R as well. I didn't want to be "just the mom," but felt that that was what I was supposed to be doing. I tried to be the mom I thought I should be (june cleaver) and that's not me AT ALL. (Ok, showing my age) but this mom still likes Ozzy & AC/DC and listening to the rock station, but that's not how a mom should act. In a nutshell, I wasn't happy w/ ME, therefore when H finally said to me when he looked @ me and saw an angry, tired, bitter woman, he was actually truly right.

The issues in our M weren't all about sex, but that was pretty much absent and he felt rejected. Like I've said, I now know exactly how he felt and it's a horrible feeling. I didn't see it that way before. Didn't realize I was in fact rejecting him by not wanting that intimacy w/ him.

Anyway, I am hopeful that w/ all of the positive changes I'm making in me, it will, in time, heal our M. This "new" me that is actually now enjoying sex AND enjoying trying different things AND enjoying that it pleases my H as well is actually happy about those things. I don't feel like I'm doing any of it to "keep him" and I also am working on the other intimate details of our M as well, not just the physical.

thanks for any input and all the advice that has been given. I truly appreciate it!!!!