Now I am going to vent and I am afraid you have to listen........and hopefully comment!!
Picked up son tonight and went round and gave him a bath.
Noticed holiday brochure on side for holiday cottages. She said she needed to get away as she was so tired and it transpires it will be end of June.....davedick's 40th!!!!
She went on to say it probably would not happen as nothing is booked.
Anyway I made no comment and we carried on playing with our son and had a couple of beers/wine.
I then noticed a postcard on the side from Davedick from Oz with a picture of a train.....words were all gushy..blaaah to my son.
W made some comments about how it must be hard for me to have son all day on my own and that it is probably difficult coping on my own. I said not diificult but without 10 minutes here and there during the day it can get quite stressful!! She said she understood and that I must miss him but that she had all the hard work!!!
We talked about how hard it was for me not being with Sam 24/7 and that she knows how much I miss that. Also that n0-one else would replace me!!
I am going round tomorrow to put together Sam's first 'big boys bed' and she has ummed and ahhed but realised that ' Daddy' should be there for his first time in big bed.
Anyway she asked if we ' could break bread' and have a take-away together and would I go and get another bottle of wine!! I did and we had a very nice night.
Lots of things were said under the surface tonight but I cannot quite decipher them and whether I made right noises in response.
She said as I left that it was a great night and thanks for sharing dinner!!
I am so scared that I am filling a void at the moment!!
