I fear that LL will never swallow his pride thus never come back

I fear that maybe he DOESN'T want to come back

I fear that I will never find another love

I fear that he was lying the entire 15 years I have known him

I fear that his family will never understand

I fear that he will choose his family over me

I fear that he will find OW and everyone will love her and she will be more attractive/thinner/smarter than I

I fear that he will have children with someone other than me

I fear that I will never get over my anger towards him

I fear that once my dogs pass, there will be no connection with him

I fear that my "gift" will drive him away

I fear losing hope that we could reconcile

Aug '06: H moved out
July '08: H had a kid with the OW
May 12 '09: emancipation day

"Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." -Ferris Bueller