Could Use Some Input Over here

[RedHeadWife]

You are totally right. It may sound like an excuse, but I truly thought I was doing my "duty" by putting the kids first and doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing in raising them, etc. I now see things more clearly and in a different light. I now know that H is supposed to come before kids and I'm making sure that that is happening. I now know that I guess I was thinking - I take care of the kids and H takes care of me, but no one was "taking care of" H. Wrong answer, I know!!

Anyway, this a.m., HE INITIATED!!! Yeah for me. Last night I tried to get things started, but he was sore from having to do a PT (phy training) test for work and said that he would set a "date" for tonight (a plus right there). Well, this a.m., I got up & got coffee started, brought him his coffee and was about to leave the room & he actually called me back to cuddle a bit and one thing led to another! Yeah!!! I really, really think things are coming along or he is coming around or whatever. I truly still didn't know what he was thinking/feeling about R, etc. I was pretty much scared to ask, but also didn't want to put any pressure on him. I have so learned my lesson this time about just loving him and letting him find his way back on his own.

Ok, now, how graphic can we get here? I truly need some pointers from the guys on BJ's. I think I'm doing ok,but just ok, don't really know what I'm doing. Can you guys give me some pointers on here? or is that allowed?