Well if H sees you enjoying your "sweats day" then I would just say that I planned on "casual Wednesday, sorry you missed the memo!"
I do hope you research for yourself some of the meds your taking...and definitely not taking two at time the first go around...not a good idea with new meds...I only copied a few things down on Lorazapam, there is much much more on just that one...it is sad to say but sometimes doctors don't always prescribe wisely...there are plenty of examples of entertainers that overdosed on mixtures of legally prescribed medications...and doctors are required to carry medical malpractice insurance for a reason...they are not perfect...when I am prescribed anything new I totally read all the fine print that comes with it...if I don't get the information handed to me I will ask the pharmacist for it or I will look it up online...a few times I have found that what I was prescribed was not the best thing to use for my condition...so please do your homework...you have to take care of YOU...
Also, try and avoid naps during the day...these will mess with your ability to sleep at night causing a vicious circle with the sleeping pills and such to keep on...you need to force your way through a few days of eating a light dinner, taking a warm bath, drinking an herbal tea or warm milk, reading something funny or light (I did cook books, lol), then at a set time turn out the lights....focus on your breathing, your heart beating, inhale through your nose, exhale with cheeks puffed through your mouth, think pleasant thoughts...imagine the sunshining on you and feeling all warm...imagine taking a walk and noticing all the little things...remember back to when you were five or six and what you liked to do after you got home from school...think about old friends you haven't seen and wonder what they are doing...just let your thoughts wonder but REFUSE any about H, R, M, OW, or work!!!
Avoid personal discussions or confrontations for now
Don't question when you do see H
Accept his answers as he states them without requestioning
Don't assume anything and don't ask
Smile
Listen
Be pleasant
Don't be too available
Turn down invitations on occassion
Mind your business and let him mind his
Have a daily plan before you leave the house
Make sure to do something that you enjoy even if it is just stopping to smell the roses, at least 3 times a day
If you start obsessing about H, STOP, redirect thoughts to something else, focus on the ants, anything
Don't drive by OW's house, job sites, or anywhere else looking for H's car...he might see you and that wouldn't be good
Stop snooping
Think about handing over H's bills and personal things for him to take care of, giving you more time for YOU
Don't "stage" the office...i.e. leave mail in his chair so you can tell if he as sat down
